Ok so I guess I’m a blogger now? Real life, twenty-first century shit. Where to begin… let me start by saying thank you if you have found your way to my page for whatever reason.
I am grateful to anyone who would show interest in my life enough to click around the internet and land themselves here. In this initial post I am going to try and give you all a little insight as to who I am, what I do, and why I do it… so here goes.
I have always been drawn to music and the power it can have. It wasn’t until around the age of fifteen I realized that I myself could give the whole songwriting thing a go. Before that, I dinked around on the piano and scribbled my broody adolescent woes into a journal. I never thought to bring the two together. Once I made the discovery that you could write your feelings out, put a melody behind them and call it a song, I never looked back. I also discovered that under the disguise of music, people were more inclined to listen to your darkest fears and failings, and digest it as an art form instead of a possible diagnosis.
I have been writing songs in some capacity from that point on.
I am now twenty-four, and within the last two years or so I have finally found the courage to share what I do with the outside world. I have always been guarded when it comes to my creative outlets. It’s taken me a while to get over my insecurities and down right fear of the human species, and commit to what I love doing, in a public form.
Now let’s get down to the nitty-gritty of what makes this girl tick. I wanted to include a blog on my website so I could openly share the reality behind the songs. I have struggled with depression from well lets see… my first waking moment into consciousness. I was never what one might call well adjusted, as you might be able to tell from my music. I would like to state now as a disclaimer this is not a “my journey of healing” kinda post. I am not here to offer advice or tips or bullshit life hacks like “go for a hike,” “wake up early,” or “just take your brain out of your head". I am simply sharing this so people have a better understanding of where my music and I are coming from.
I am truly grateful that, despite my relentless efforts of self-sabotage, I am here, I am alive and I am able to create something that makes existing a little more bearable for me. That being said, I want to acknowledge the countless days in between the songs, where just getting out of bed and staring at the wall seems like an impossible task. That some days I feel like the saddest excuse of a human lump you could imagine. I want to share this with you in case you too feel like a sad human lump. I want to say that wherever you think I am in life compared to you… it took me what seems like lifetimes to get here, and I, just like you perhaps, am nowhere… staring at a wall, conquering life one fucking day at a time.
- With a little love and a buttload of misguided contempt, yours truly
-Lauren June